Robert had a signature song....whenever anyone asked him to demonstrate his piano "chops" he would break out into a rendition of "Linus and Lucy" it was one of his favorites to play and people usually knew the tune. He would play it daily claiming that it made for a good "warm up" on the piano. For years, that song has brought me to my knees in tears for no reason and I have been quick to shut it off. It was too much.
Charlie Brown Christmas was on TV. I watched it with Munchkin. He loved it. He did think that Lucy was very mean to Charlie Brown and he thought that Charlie should have told her to stop being a bully-but he loved the show.
On Friday night we had valentine's dinner at my parent's house. As my dad flipped through the channels, I heard the soundtrack and I inhaled sharply. Munchkin let out a "STOP THERE PAPA" and he was hooked all over again. He watched everyone skip Charlie Brown when it came time for valentines and declared that the kids he went to school with were mean. If he was there he would be Charlie's friend.
One of the strangest things for me is that I get to watch Munchkin find joy in something that Robert and I used to. He has such a deep belly laugh and I love to see him smile. It reminds me of Roberts grin and it brings me joy. For a fleeting moment, it feels as if my life is coming full circle. The only thing missing is Robert.