There is this fog that descends upon a brain when it is in shock. There is well researched "chemo brain" and people refer to "senior moments" when they get to about 50 and start to forget things here and there.
In the widowed world, we don't have an official term, however I will just call it "widow brain". Where you are standing there and you know you have to do something, but you are dumbstruck as to whatever that could be....forget the obvious clues, like an open dishwasher and dirty dishes in the sink---we will forget about the part of me running into the dishwasher and going flying through the kitchen....yep we will totally forget about that.
But in my case, I forget even the most mundane things....like the ability to count to 6! Yes, I did say 6!.
See this weekend, I had a birthday party for my sister. Taking after her big sis, she has her birthday and wedding anniversary in the same week. Smart girl! Earlier this week, I went out to find her a suitable gift. I looked it up, and the traditional gift for five years of marriage is wood. Huh, I thought, hmmm...her husband built her a beautiful swing and trellis for their 4th anniversary, that's cool-maybe he should have waited a year.
I'm wracking my brain on what to get made out of wood. Well she loves to cook and host parties so I settle on a large nice bamboo cutting board.
I go about my week. My brother in law comes over and takes my son to the store to pick out a cake. They come back and it says happy 33rd birthday. I could have sworn she was 35...oh crap wait, that is my brother who is 35, she really is 33.
Well, I fill out their card, with something sappy and sweet and wish them a happy 5th anniversary and wish them a hundred more together and happy.
Well they get here and my dad says, wow, guys six years together.
WAIT. WHAT??? Now wait a second dad, it is five. My sister laughs, "nope it is 6...munchkin is 6 we have been married six years."
DUH. I said, well when you open your card, just know I can't count! The afternoon wears on and the kids make sure to fit all 33 candles on her cake...it is peppered with jokes about how they can count much better than I can!
Fast forward to this morning, munchkin was home from school yesterday so this morning was rushed with breathing treatments and getting ready. I ordered some stuff online with a friend to save on shipping and I needed to bring her money this morning. She just sent me a text, I gave her an extra $20!
I am planning on blaming these transgressions on lack of sleep. I think I seriously either need more sleep than my body will get in several months or I am the one that needs to be in FIRST GRADE!