Yesterday I put away our Christmas decorations. Many of them were up for the first time since Christmas 2007.
Robert and I had a few traditions. First we bought a new ornament every year, we actually bought two most years, he was fond of the glass balls from Hallmark--I have a much more whimsical taste.
We also made or purchased a piece to our village.
Our only Christmas as a family of three was 2007. Munchkin was 7 months old. It was perfect. Many of my decorations have not seen the light of day since that season.
As I was moving into our new house, my mom and dad set up my tree with munchkin and his cousins. They didn't know that I had not been putting all of the decorations up. I noticed it, but let it go. They stayed up all season. I put them away yesterday.
As I was packing things away into their boxes...yes...I am one of THOSE people, you know the ones who keep the original ornament boxes to re-use year after year. I noticed something. That I had kept up our traditions without really thinking much about it.
You see, for the past five years, I have let munchkin pick out the ornaments. I can see his tastes emerge and evolve. This year it was Frosty the snowman, last year, Alvin, 2010 it was Mickey Mouse, 2009 it was Cars. In 2008, I picked our ornament, it was a seashell with a pearl in it, it was pretty. This year munchkin asked for two ornaments.
The second one that he picked was a blue ball, it had a picture of Bethlehem and the north star. I thought when he picked it, that Robert would have really liked it. As I packed it away, I noticed, that along the bottom there were words. It is the words to Silent Night. That was Robert's all time favorite Christmas Carol!!!
I guess after all this time and all of the tears, I can still find glimpses of him here and now, for the most part it makes me smile.
The other thing that has become apparent, is that Munchkin loves Christmas! He loves the story of the birth of Jesus, he loves Santa and he loves St Nicholas. So much so, that as I was packing up, he pilfered my small musical Christmas Tree without me noticing. When I put him to bed, I saw it on his bookshelf in his room. I asked him how it got there.
He replied "I put it there mommy, I want to have a little Christmas in my room all the time". Little does he know, that is something his father would have done. I put a smile on my face and tucked him in!